Feels like a slump

Oh, I'm in rare form tonight with two separate postings in one night! Woo Hoo!
Well, maybe you won't feel that way after reading this. To start things off I want to state/warn that this posting is very much a free flowing expression of thoughts as they occur to me. Or at least as quickly as possible given that I have to pause to actually type the thoughts out and do a lot of backspacing to correct typo's as I see them...

So, on to the substance: I'm in a slump. Slumping in work (a bit, but not horribly). Slumping in my hobbies. Those of you reading this who know me...which I assume is just about everyone, since I don't really get people reading this blog from the outside...well you know that I have two main hobbies in my life: Drumming and Photography.
They are both very different and very exciting ways for me to express myself. Not that I think too much about the "expressing myself" part but even I have to admit that it's pretty much what it all boils down to. In Photography I express myself when I take action to make a photo shoot happen by finding an inspiration, finding the key players to help me make the vision a reality (Models, MUA, Stylists etc...) and then doing the post production work on the images to create a final piece of work. Of course it should be stated that these days, with the advent of the Digital Photographic Era and photo editing software such as Photoshop and others, there is the strong possibility that an image is NEVER really done. Taking it thru the creative process and tweaking it again and again is always possible now. That's a pretty rare thing for me to do, but I have to acknowledge that it's a possibility.
But normally, once I figure out what I want the image to look like and get it as close as possible, I'm done with it. I have to be because there are a gazillion other images demanding my attention!
However, at the moment, there is just no real incentive to push myself to work on images...and there is a nagging thought in my mind that is actually slowing me down. Simply put the thought is this: There are too many options for where to take an image and I can't make the decision right now!
Yeah, big surprise. I know...
Often times my other hobby is useful for helping out of this funk. Playing drums in a band that focuses on music from a very narrow sliver of time, and is then limited further by only being able to play a few of those songs due to the limitations of the band (we are a 3 piece and have no Keyboards and no way to adequately produce Vocal Harmony) means that my choices of what and how to play something are also rather limited. This is normally not a problem for me as the simple act of playing the music with other musicians is often enough of a thrill to make the whole thing worthwhile.
But...
And you had to know there would be a "but..."
For various reasons there is less and less satisfaction to be had with both of these passtimes.
For one thing, I want to make Photography much more than a "Passtime" and have grand visions of amazing images I want to create...but am lacking the key element in making it all happen: My Muse. The model I can connect with and find inspiration in that will cause me to WANT to go thru all the trouble of a photoshoot.
I have a gut feeling that I may have met a strong candidate for this role. But it's not a forgone conclusion that it will happen.
She's got the right "look" but I don't know if she has it inside to be able to fulfill this role.
Me being who I am, I feel a tinge of regret at this because I really want her to work out, but I get the distinct sense that the obsticles will be greater than we can overcome. At least for the now.
Who knows what the future holds? I certainly don't...at least I don't know anything further than the fact that I will be going to sleep relatively soon as I have obligations in the morning tomorrow and it's already 10:30pm and I haven't even beGUN to do the photo editing that needs to be done.
I blame you.
Yes, that feels right to me...

I have a few things to rethink...

This will be a pretty short post. It may be a tad obscure...but hopefully cathartic at the same time.

I recently had a first date with a girl I met a few years ago and have often thought about.
She's sexy, intelligent, talented, yadda yadda... but as with anyone, has more sides to her than originally meet the eye.

I have hopes of advancing things with her on a variety of levels. Personally, Photographically, Musically...

But it's been said that hopes are not a thing one is always capable of hanging a hat upon...

It's time for me to rethink a few things...

More later.

Maybe.

Access dB Woes

So, just for fun (sarcasm) I decided to see if I could improve a process at work.
I am in charge of updating a file that tracks the On Call techs for a variety of different departments each week. As it is, each department has a schedule for the year, and I access each individual schedule to import the current weeks data to a "Master" file that my department uses during "After Hours".
So my desire is to automate the process so that the current weeks on call information is automatically called up when the file is accessed. I know this is possible, I just don't know how...so I was playing in Access hoping to get a better feel for how to make it work, but I have no real knowledge of Database structure outside of a very basic understand that the Data is stored in Tables, etc...
So, after dinking around in Access for about an hour I have come to the conclusion that I want a cheeseburger...