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I live in Phoenix AZ, and have been working at the cable company since 1989, (I'll let you do the math...it depresses me too much!). I have a dog and a drum set at home that I play with/on regularly. Oh...and a computer. Duh... I shoot all Canon gear. Currently the 40D. I mainly focus on Glamour/Beauty/Artistic Nude photography, but I also love Event & Street photography!

Friday, December 31, 2004

Happy New Year! "Shout - don't shoot"

The Countdown has been happening all year I suppose. And even NOW we are counting down to the subsequent years to come...but I guess we all like to keep the calendar as uncluttered as possible by only tracking one year at a time.

I happen to be working until 7pm tonight, and have only the slightest plans to do any celebrating. It's really just another day for me. Sad, isn't it? Well. I hope to be able to change that sometime in the not too distant future, but in the mean time I am just hoping that it doesn't rain tonight. Not just water, but Lead. There is a really disturbing practice in major metropolitan cities to fire guns in the air on new years. I have never understood this. I mean, I know people are stoopid but there can't be people who don't know that the bullets that go up, come back down. I mean, where do they think the come down to? France?

So, since I haven't yet invested in a kevlar hat and vest, I will have to trust my fellow man NOT to kill me tonight by shooting off his weapon into the air. Wish me luck. Oh, and good luck to you as well!!
And: HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Post Script: For those of you who are still writing CHECKS instead of using Debit Cards...remember to use the correct YEAR!

heh

Monday, December 27, 2004

Ballet...In Space

My friends,
This link will take you to the posting of a friend of mine. I would take it as a personal favor if you would take a few minutes to read her post, and post a comment there to let her know how you felt about her entry. I honestly feel that this woman has an amazing potential, but I would like to hear (read?) what other people think as well!

Thanks in advance everyone!

Friday, December 24, 2004

Ho Ho Ho...

Well, since my religious background is Jewish, Christmas has never been that big a deal to me. But I do like the pretty lights and the fact that many of my friends come home for the holidays. And that means I get to reconnect with them and have some good times.
This week, for instance, my close friends Chris and Paula and their lovely daughter Aurianna (Hope I am spelling her name correctly!) came in from thier home in Arkansas. We all gathered and Jessie and Jammies home to play some family games with J&J's kids Heatherbrae and Jessdyn. And it was a great time! We had a chance to have good conversation, take some fun pictures and just be together.
The following night (Last night) I had the pleasure of taking my friends out to dinner followed by a drive around the city streets looking at Christmas decorations. All in all, it has been a very pleasant experience. The only real damper on it is that I am fighting a bit of a head cold. Ick.
Tomorrow I will be back here in the office, working on Christmas day. But, again, since this isn't my holiday, what it REALLY means to me is triple time for the holiday! Woot!!
One of the things I regret is that I am not able to spend any time with either of my sisters. Or my nieces. I really need to make some calls and catch up on things.
So, to my family and friends that honor me by reading this Blog I would like to wish you all a Happy Holiday! And to all, a good night!


Tuesday, December 21, 2004

minnebugo


minnebugo
Originally uploaded by matt.ohara.
OK...This is just too funny to pass by without sharing!

Monday, December 20, 2004

[Fwd: Re: A Question from a Fan: Have you ever heard of NaNoWriMo?]

OMG
OK...so I decided to do the unthinkable. I decided to send an email to my FAVORITE author just to ask him a question. I had very little thoughts or hopes that I would ever get a reply. I mean, the man has got to get tons of email and have "things to do" etc. So it was quite the shock (and honor) that I not only got a reply, but within several hours of sending my message!

OK...OK, I know. As much as I enjoy his work and "idolize" him, I know he is just a man. Living in the same world as I do, and not any of the fantasy worlds he has created. I know all of this. But still...my heart really skipped a beat when I saw his email in my inbox! The bummer is, I didn't save the original message and his response was edited to delete the non-relevant content in relation to the answer to the question I asked him. In other words, I don't have a copy of the praise I sent him so I can't re-read it an gloat to myself at how clever I was in sending praise that wasn't the ramblings of a drooling fanboy, (Which is how I felt as I was writing it...)

Man. What a cool feeling. If you have the chance to make some kind of contact with your favorite author...take it! Really!

Here is the response I just got from Mr. Brust a few minutes ago.

Woot!!

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From: Steve Brust <http://webmail.west.cox.net/agent/MobNewMsg?to=skzb@dreamcafe.com

Date: 2004/12/20 Mon PM 02:04:48 EST

To: http://webmail.west.cox.net/agent/MobNewMsg?to=wilgar@cox.net

Subject: Re: A Question from a Fan: Have you ever heard of NaNoWriMo?


...Now, on to the question I have for you.

I would like to know if you have heard of the website called National Novel Writing Month (http://www.nanowrimo.org)/. If you have, what is your opinion of it? If you haven't, here is a brief explination: Founded in 1999 by Chris Baty, the opbject is to get people to bash out a 50,000 word novel in 30 days. The primary thought behind it is that Quantity rather than Quality is the driving force to get folks started down the path of becoming Novelists. As a professional novelist yourself, your thoughts on this would be much appreciated.


-Thanks much for the kind words. I'm glad you liked the books, and took the time to tell me so.

Sorry, I'm not familiar with it, so I can't really comment. From what you say, I don't see what harm it could do, and it may do some good.
Best,
Steve

Hot Dogs and Used Cars

This morning at about 10:30 Jessie calls and asks me to join him for a day of car hunting at the big sale. So, on the way there, we take a detour and pick up Chris, a friend of ours who will also be joining the fun! The cool thing is, I haven't seen Chris for a few years since he lives out of state. His family is in town for the holidays. Although I knew he was coming to town, I didn't know he was already here!

The day was warm, the sky blue and here we were, on a used car lot taking test drives and having Chinese Fire Drills! (Man, that was funny!) The salesman Tim was one of the better car salesmen I have met. Not all that pushy, knowledgeable about the cars and the car buying process. And although he did do a few "salesman" things, overall I was pleased with his professionalism.

The vehicle that my friend bought is a 2002 Honda Passport Mini-SUV and I have to say I am really glad that he was able to get the deal since his current MiniVan is definately on it's last legs, so to speak.


Rock Star
Originally uploaded by Wilgar.

While he was doing the negotiating on the deal, I was chatting up the girl at the hot dog stand. So I ask you, if you had a camera, wouldn't YOU want her picture too?

And, this gave Chris and I a bit of time to catch up on things as well, which was really great! I miss him and his wife Paula a lot. I am hoping that we have a chance to talk while they're in town. I really need that.

OK...so, here we are at the end of the stream of thought that lead me to this posting in the first place, so I will just have to end this now. Enjoy the picture...!

Sunday, December 19, 2004

The Portal Wars

Rather than take up a bunch of space here, I decided to create another site that is dedicated to my writings more than just my musings. Follow the link to get the story.
Please post your comments about the story on the site itself.

And, Thank you all Very Much for all the support you have given me!


===Steven===>>

Saturday, December 18, 2004

Coming Soon...

Look for the first installment of: The Portal Wars coming soon...

Yes, Chris. THOSE Portal Wars...

Friday, December 17, 2004

Julie

Time has its way with us.
It takes us from youth to maturity and it cares not a bit whether or not we are ready for the journey. The idealist in me often turns my thoughts to the dreams that childhood gave me. The realist in me forces my mind's eye to look at life not as the idyllic playground of my happy youth, but as a brutally harsh environment that is uncaring of my feelings or my fears. Yet there is a part of me that knows something else is true. Beyond a doubt it knows with a certainty reserved only for those times in life when possibilities are ripped away and all that remains is the one single outcome of inevitability. This part of me knows with just that certainty that there are people in this world whose primary purpose in life is to enrich the lives of those around them in a way that few could imagine. My sister Julie is one such person.

She personifies in my mind the unique qualities of someone who does things not only for herself, but for her family as well. She is raising her two daughters to be the absolute best that they can be, and in the same motion is raising the bar for my life achievements. Forcing me to evaluate what I am doing and where I am going in a way that shows me that no matter how difficult it may seem, perseverance will win out and achievements will be mine. She doesn't know that I feel this way. Or, at least she didn't until just now. That's because she would never think of herself in these terms. She would just say that she is doing the best she can for her family and herself. And that is exactly my point. Her example is there for me (and anyone who knows her) to see and it is an example of how life should be lead.

And, on top of all of that, she is beautiful. She has ever and always been beautiful. Her physical appearance has changed ever so slightly over the past 20 odd years and as far as I can see it has only improved itself. I was struck with these thoughts just tonight as I viewed a recent picture that she sent me.

She stated in such a matter of fact way to me that this photo was taken by her 12 year old daughter to be used on the dust jacket of her latest book. Now, since I know her, and I know of the book she is referring to, I am not instantly surprised by the comment in and of itself. It happened as I looked at the picture longer and longer, and thought more about what that nonchalant sentence really meant. That's when it struck me. My sister’s 12 year old daughter has taken a photo to be used on the dust cover of her mother’s book. I am fairly certain that these circumstances are rare for most families. Proving once again to me that she is an exceptional woman with an exceptional life.

These thoughts raced through my mind, took a few hairpin turns and eventually wound their way here, to become words on a screen. Words waiting for a casual reader to happen upon them. To absorb them into thier minds and come a little closer to understanding something more about the author. That is why they exist. In short, they are waiting for you.

Monday, December 13, 2004

Not Quite Movie Review Time

I am not going to get into great detail here, but I would like to say that if you have any unhealed emotional scars caused by romantic relationships gone awry...beware the film "Closer" as it has the power to open the wounds and pour some industrial strength salt in them. Now, that being said, I would STILL recommend this film to anyone interested in watching a story unfold and being taken along on a journey of character developement and "real" relationship conversation that WILL make you blush.

Oh...and seeing Natalie Portman in as sexy a roll as I have ever seen her in is a bit of a plus for me as well.

What can I tell you...I'm a guy.

Saturday, December 11, 2004

Follow-up to Termites

Wow...this is the most action I have had in responses in a looong time! Not sure if it's due to the horribleness of the bugs, or my incidental tugging of the heartstrings, but I thought I should follow up and let you all know that the Termite Treatment has been done and now all that is left is to wait a few weeks for the Termidor to do it's thing & kill the colony. I can't wait! The little buggers are STILL coming out of the ceiling!

So...I hired the Winter Bros since they were about $275 cheaper than the other quote and I am, at this time, happy with the work that was done. I am confident that in the coming weeks this will become just another problem that has been resolved by throwing money at it, (reminds me of the way the government runs things...).

Thanks to everyone who commented either on the site or in email on this. Your support is very touching.

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

You wouldn't be reading this if it weren't for...

Old Computers.

There is something unmistakably cool about looking at the top of the line, state of the art personal electronic devices that our parents had when we were groing up. I still to this day have a vivid memory of the sound that my fathers "ancient" adding machine made as he punched in the numbers and hit the final key to calculate the answer to his mathematical question. It was loud and obnoxious at the time, but the memory is fond and warm to me now. I remember that he marveled at the cost of the machine. He bought it at the Park and Swap for $20.00. The part of this that he marveled at was his memory of paying several HUNDRED dollars for the SAME MACHINE just 20 years previous.

So, when I came across this website that is an on line museum of the machines that have come before, I couldn't resist sharing the link. I know there are some of my friends that won't get as big a kick out of this as I did...and there are others that will like it even more. But no matter where your personal interest lays you have to acknowledge that you wouldn't be where you are at this moment, doing what you are doing right now if it weren't for these machines that have come before...

http://www.oldcomputers.net/

Ramblings of a Working Man

Be prepared…this may tend to ramble a bit. Sorry. It’s just the way the thoughts are flowing at the moment…

It keeps happening to me while I am at work. I get involved in a thought or a feeling that is the true essence of me, and then the distractions of my surroundings take it all away from me. I think at the time it happens that the feeling is gone forever, but somehow it keeps coming back to me. But it seems to only come when I am not able to capitalize on it. Like now, when I am surrounded by visual and audible distractions (i.e. my job…)

Some of you may ask why I seem to do most of my posting while on the job. Well, the simple truth is that my home is even more of a distraction at times. With the girls vying for my attention, and the constant sound of the TV coming from across the hall, and the general disarray of my room and such…sitting at my desk at work seems to be the more conducive place for me to write. Personally I think that is sad and I would like to change that. Hhhmm…

So, back to the point I was making. I was reading on a friend’s blog some of her deepest thoughts. At least they SEEM like her deepest thoughts. They are at least the deep thoughts that she has chosen to share with the world by publishing them on her Web Log. But I know from the few brief encounters that I have had with her that she is a deep thinker and there are still things deep inside that will likely never make it to the page just because that is the way deep thoughts are…I am looking forward to seeing more of these thoughts bubble up to the surface.

And, for anyone out there that is lurking in the background who may be thinking of starting a blog of their own, I would encourage you to take that step. Take the all-important first step. Start writing your petty thoughts and let someone else read them. It is very liberating. Believe me.

Monday, December 06, 2004

Pest Control Blues

So, I learned that my house has termites. I learned this because the little critters are coming out of my living room ceiling! 3 strands seemingly appeared over night! I have to say that it really gives me the willies being in that room!

Naturally, as soon as I noticed them, I started looking in the phone book for someone to take care of the problem. And just as naturally, it was a weekend so there was no one answering the phones when I called. It took 3 days to get someone out just to give me an estimate!

Now, I never really had any practical experience in dealing with these pests, but I remember several years ago learning from a friend that the treatments can be rather expensive. And now I know that he's right! The first quote I got was for over $1000.00! Then I experienced various problems getting someone else out to the house to give me a 2nd estimate, but today it finally happened. Here's the thing: I got the referral from my ex-fiancé who now lives in Ohio. She recommended this guy that she knew here in Phoenix. She said he specialized in treating termites and that he may actually give me a discount if I tell him that she referred me. And even though I know that this was a guy she was "dating" while we were "broken up" but still living together...a buck is a buck so I gave the man a call.

Turns out, a buck is actually closer to $300! His price quote was $300 less then the first estimate I got and he will do more work, with a longer (lifetime) guarantee! So, I think I can swallow my pride a bit and save some cash along the way.

So tell me, what would you do in this situation?

Monday, November 29, 2004

I have been chastised...and I Liked It!

So, a few weeks ago I decided that I would start posting here on a more regular basis, but as you can see, that didn't happen. I for one am not surprised. I am a bit dissappointed in myself, but not surprised. I know how I am, and being consistant isn't one of my strong points. A big part of the reason is that I haven't been able to concentrate during the three or four times I made an attempt to write something of significance because I was at work at the time. Well, I am at work again and keep getting distracted by the conversations of my coworkers, but this time, I am determined not to let the distractions keep me from my appointed task! (Only Time will Tell if I am successful) If you are reading this message, then we all KNOW that the distractions were not sufficiant enough to prevent me from posting! However, if they DO stop me...heh...how would you know!?

And, on top of that, I was thoroughly chastised that I have been depriving someones entertainment and that I should get back to writing more often. Well well and well... So, for your entertainment, I now present a few minor ramblings coming from my mind.


The other day I was listnening to an NPR broadcast of Talk of the Nation. The show was about NaNoMo, or National Novel Writing Month. (BTW: Those are all different links. Try them all!)
The basic idea is this: the month of November is NaNoMo. People sign up to participate all during October. The goal is simply to write 50,000 words in 30 days, from November 1st thru Nov 30th. The thought being that quantity, not quality is the punch in the shorts that the aspiring novelist needs in order to break the barrier and get a manuscript out. All of the editing happens afterwards.

To accomplish this goal, a few recommendations given that should help to keep you on track. One is to write and write and write, without self editing yourself. (This, I think, would be one of the most difficult things for most people. Myself included) Another is to be sure to find a way/place to be uninterrupted when you are working. Also, they think that using friends and family to guilt you into working is a plausible thought. I don't think that would work for me personally, but the idea has merrit.

Since I didn't learn about NaNoMo until the later part of November, there isn't enough time for me to participate this year. But, with luck I will be able to do it next year. And, I have purchased the book "No Plot? No Problem!" and am eagerly awaiting it's arrival from Amazon so I can read it and get a headstart for next time. (This was the 6th annual NaNoMa.) Or, I could use it as an inspiration to do the project on my own! After all, why wait a whole year to spit out all the thoughts and story ideas that come to me over time?!

On a totally different thought: I was graciously invited to the movies last saturday by Cherry and Morgan and thier son. (He was down from Flagstaff for Thanksgiving.) The movie was Sideways. I had never even heard of the film before that night, but the logic was that they were paying for my ticket so why would I say no?! Besides, I have been wanting to get together with them for some time, and this was the opportunity we had all been waiting for! So, about Sideways: There were actors in it that I really like a lot! Paul Giamatti, Thomas Haden Church, Sandra Oh and Virginai Madsen. The story itself was the kind that just unfolds and sort of drags you along on a journey of discovery. Well, all I can say about the film is that all of the acting was fantastic, (I really like Paul Giamatti!) but I wish I knew what to expect going into it. I think that would have heightend my overall enjoyment of the experience. After the movie we went to a late dinner at Claim Jumpers. I love the way that place is decorated! And we all had a chance to talk about the movie, as well as other things. I would have to say that all in all, this was one of the better Saturdays I have had in a long time!

OK...well, it's not quite 50,000 words, but it is certainly more than I have written for some time now, so I think it's time to publish this and let my adoring fans bask in the glory of my latest rant. Yeah...right.

Monday, November 22, 2004

Answers to popular questions

If someone asks if you are Sarah Connor, you say "No!"
If someone asks if you're a God...you say "YES!"

Monday, October 25, 2004

The Class of 1984 Reunion

It finally happened. It's official. I can stop holding my breath now...(insert heavy exhaling sound here) I have attended my 20 year High School Reunion!
I can clearly remember times back in HS when I would think about what my future would be in the year 2000. I mean, I did the math and figured out that I would be 34 years old when the new millennium arrived, although to be honest, I never once thought of the year 2000 as a "New Millennium". And even though I knew what my age would be, I had no idea what it MEANT to be 34...and now, I am 38 and creeping up on the Big Four Oh! There are many things that happened to me in the last 20 years that are not surprising. At least not to me. And many other things that I would never have guessed would have happened. Isn't that just the way life is...?
There were about 60-70 people from my graduating class in attendance. That's not a lot considering there were 400 students in that class! But still, a nice amount for the event. Enough to make it worth while in going. Getting to see a few people that I had forgotten I even knew, and make small talk conversation with them was pleasant. And bugging everyone with my camera was fun for me as well! If anyone is interested in seeing the pics, you can view them here.
So...now that this is out of the way, I suppose this would be a good time in my life to focus on my future and not my past. The timing is interesting on that count as my employers benefits package open enrollment is coming up in the coming weeks and that is exactly what I have to focus on: The Future. Making decisions that will have to last me for the entire year and may effect my financial health as well as my physical well being can be a tad stressful. Good thing I have an EAP plan to help with the Stress!!

Saturday, October 16, 2004

Organizing my room is Step One

My bedroom, for those of you who have never seen it, which I presume is most of you, is a mess.
There are piles of mail, loose papers along with old stacks of books and magazines covering every surface such as my drafting table, a 3 shelf unit, a night stand, oh, and fully half of my king size bed. It's a mess! So, in an effort to take control of this situation, I bought a 5 shelf bookcase from Wal-Mart and spent several hours last night trying to get rid of the unwanted, undeeded clutter. hhmm...this task is harder than I would think it should be. You see, my problem in tackling this task is that I am easily distracted by the very things I am trying to clean up! The books and magazines all call to me as I pick them up and consider thier worth/value to me. Not to mention trying to determine how best to organize the clutter! I mean, the diversity of topics of these books is, to me rather significant. There is a big book from Home Depot for home repair. There are many books dealing with Real Estate Investing, sales and negotiation. Well, you get the point.
After the books, there is still a pile of mail and other debris hanging out and accumulating that must be stopped! If only I could afford a personal assistant, then all of this could be relegated to someone else and I would be free to stand back and criticize from a distance!
Ah, well. These are the things that occupy my mind while I should be thinking of other matters...like what am I going to have for lunch today?

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

Time Passes...

I can't believe it has been 2 weeks since my last post here. So much has stayed the same in my life that I don't know where to start...
Here are some interesting tidbits of Steve Trivia. I saw 2 movies 2 nights in a row this past week. The first one was Shaun of the Dead. THAT was a riot! I am not a big fan of horror movies, but this was really great! As the poster says, it's a Romance...with Zombies! If you like to laugh, I recomend this one!

The 2nd film was The Forgotten with Julianne Moore. This film was definately NOT funny. But then, it wasn't trying to be, so on that count, they succeeded. However, IMO they failed on just about every other point (Except the actual performances. They were all fine). But on the whole, I would say wait for this one on DVD. It really just wasn't as compelling as I was hoping for. Those of you who know me, know that I really hate to talk about the details of a movie with anyone who hasn't seen it, so I won't get into the plot here. Just suffice it to say that this film doesn't break any new ground. BUT if you are a fan of any of the principle cast memebers, you may enjoy it for their performances.

One of the MOST enjoyable things I did this weekend was attend the Oktoberfest at the Tempe Town Lake. Now, since we went on the last day, things were not as "happening" as I was told they were on friday and saturday, but all in all, the atmosphere was nice, the weather was fantastic, the company was wonderful (thank you Tiffany and Craig for the invite!) and we just had a good time!

So...that's all for now. I will post the pics from Oktoberfest and get a link to them from here later on. At the moment, I am heading off to bed!

Monday, September 20, 2004

May The Force Be With You...now stop taking it so SERIOUS people!

"How can you be so serious on a film where you are dodging explosions and running away with Sir Alec Guinness on this side and an eight-foot monkey on this side, and the eight-foot monkey is the one flying the spaceship?"

-Mark Hamill commenting on some of the nitpicking fans of
Star Wars have done.


"I think it [A Star Wars Fan Site] was speculating on the administrative cost of the janitorial staff of the Death Star, taking this hard-edged reality to something that's fantasy...But I was that way myself. I remember saying things like, `Well, wait a minute. I just got out of the trash compactor. How come my hair's all perfect?' And Harrison (Ford) would go, `Hey kid ... it ain't that kind of movie.'"

-Mark Hamill


"Before I went off to do the film, [The Empire Strikes Back] I had a talk with George. He said, `I want you to know something. They're going to prepare all these special devices for you but nothing is going to work ...' I thought he was kidding. From the third shot on, it was true."

-Irvin Kershner Director: The Empire Strikes Back


"When it was fashionable to say, 'May the Force be with you,' I always said, 'Force yourself'"..."'The Force is within you, force yourself'"

-Harrison Ford during a Barbara Walters Oscar Special Interview, March 1997

Saturday, September 18, 2004

The FUTURE is now

For the longest time, the future to me was always something that came in a single bundled package. It was a place that I would arrive at. And once there I would suddenly have access to all of the things that the future held. The technology, the idealism, you know…Star Trek.

Star Trek has always projected a positive outlook for the future. With its advanced means of transportation (spaceships) and advanced medicine (devices that gave every vital sign needed to diagnose your ills…in a hand held format) and extremely high-tech toys (the holodeck) it was just the place that I always wanted to live in.

Oh, I knew the state of technology in the present was quite removed from the things I saw on the show. But I also knew that the creators and writers of Star Trek made efforts to use a lot of speculative science that wasn’t always that hard to believe. After all, just because we don’t know how to make a phaser today, doesn’t mean that in the future, with advances in lasers and other technologies we wouldn’t be able to figure it out. And THAT was the thing that excited me! What the future will have in store for me! Wow! I couldn’t wait to get there!!

Eventually it occurred to me that the future wasn’t getting here as soon as I hoped. And in thinking about that, it also became apparent that one of the reasons why was that I was traveling to that future by living through the present day by day. Hour by Hour. Minute by minute. I was traveling forward in time, to be sure, but at the same rate as everyone and everything else. A 1:1 ratio if you will. And as a result of this mode of time travel, the inventions I learned of that were pushing the technological edge were not the earth-shattering, time accelerating things that I had always wanted them to be. They were new and they were advanced, but they weren’t the holodeck in my living room that I wanted.

The fact is, these advances were things that I was acclimating to as they happened, and as a result, they became comfortable to me. Like people that experienced the automobile replacing the horse and buggy as the main means of transportation. Sure, there was some resistance and skepticism to it. People never really thought that a car would replace a horse…until they got one themselves and experienced the benefits first hand. The fact that they no longer had to deal with a living animal to transport themselves and their family became such a positive thing, that the negatives were often overlooked. They were completely ignored in many cases. When the dangers of driving a car on the open road were identified, we simply made adjustments to certain things and overcame them. We created a set of rules that all drivers have to abide by. We created better and safer vehicles…and most importantly we adapted to these changes.

Such is the way of the future. It is not ushered in with a flash of the technological magic wand, but with the slow, steady development of new thoughts, new innovations. Ideas that would never have happened, had the changes of the past never happened. After all, would we really need airbags if we were still traveling in a horse drawn carriage?

As these thoughts coalesce in my mind and I sit here wanting the holodeck to be invented, I realize that I am just going to have to wait. One day at a time. Minute by minute. But that’s ok. I know it’s out there. Someday I will wake up and KNOW that the future has arrived.

I just wish it would hurry up!

Makes you feel a bit smarter.... no?

"There are some funny quotes here which I collected from various sources over time. I thought I would share them with you. I am sure you may have seen some or all of these in other places, but that's not gonna stop me!"
Steven Goldstein about this blog entry.

Q: If you could live forever, would you and why?
A: "I would not live forever, because we should not live forever, because if we were supposed to live forever, then we would live forever, but we cannot live forever, which is why I would not live forever."
Miss Alabama in the 1994 Miss USA contest.

"Whenever I watch TV and see those poor starving kids all over the world, I can't help but cry. I mean I'd love to be skinny like that, but not with all those flies and death and stuff."
Mariah Carey

"Smoking kills. If you're killed, you've lost a very important part of your life."
Brooke Shields, during an interview to become Spokesperson for federal anti-smoking campaign

"I've never had major knee surgery on any other part of my body,"
Winston Bennett, University of Kentucky, basketball forward

"Outside of the killings, Washington has one of the lowest crime rates in the country,"
Mayor Marion Barry, Washington, DC.

"I'm not going to have some reporters pawing through our papers. We are the president."
Hillary Clinton commenting on the release of subpoenaed documents

"That lowdown scoundrel deserves to be kicked to death by a jackass, and I'm just the one to do it."
A congressional candidate in Texas

"Half this game is ninety percent mental."
Philadelphia Phillies manager, Danny Ozark

"If we don't succeed, we run the risk of failure."
Bill Clinton, President

"It isn't pollution that's harming the environment. It's the impurities in our air and water that are doing it."
Al Gore, Vice President

"We are ready for an unforeseen event that may or may not occur."
Al Gore, VP

"I love California. I practically grew up in Phoenix."
Dan Quayle

"It's no exaggeration to say that the undecideds could go one way or another"
George Bush, US President

"We've got to pause and ask ourselves: How much clean air do we need?"
Lee Iacocca

"I was provided with additional input that was radically different from the truth. I assisted in furthering that version."
Col. Oliver North, from his Iran-Contra testimony

"The word "genius" isn't applicable in football. A genius is a guy like Norman Einstein."
Joe Theisman, NFL football quarterback & sports analyst.

"We don't necessarily discriminate. We simply exclude certain types of people."
Colonel Gerald Wellman, ROTC Instructor.

"Traditionally, most of Australia's imports come from overseas."
Keppel Enderbery

"If somebody has a bad heart, they can plug this jack in at night as they go to bed and it will monitor their heart throughout the night. And the next morning, when they wake up dead, there'll be a record."
Mark S. Fowler, FCC Chairman

"Your food stamps will be stopped effective March 1992 because we received notice that you passed away. May God bless you. You may reapply if there is a change in your circumstances."
Dept. of Soc. Services, Greenville, South Carolina

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

Great Mambo Chicken!

An amazing thing happened to me yesterday. In my mailbox, I found the strangest thing. A chicken. But that’s not the amazing part. What was amazing was that the chicken talked to me. Really.

More than just the traditional “Bawk!” that most chickens are prone to say, this one started telling me things that were really quite fascinating! Astonishing things about cryogenics, nanotechnology and the ability to transfer the human mind into a computer! All of these things may be a part of the way humans live and evolve in the future. And some of it in the near future! Some day “soon” people may be able to extend our lives - indefinitely!

As a result of the prospect of living forever, we would need to find a way off the planet and start spreading out into the cosmos in order to avoid overcrowding on Mother Earth.

Well…as if all of that weren’t enough, the chicken hinted at more conversations of this type that we will be having soon. Very soon! You see, this is the Great Mambo Chicken, and it’s telling me of the Transhuman Condition. This is sort of a “gray area between overheated imagination and overheated reality”. And since my chicken is really a book, and the conversations are actually just me reading the book, I know that I will be talking to the chicken more since all of the things I mentioned so far are just from the introduction. I still have 300 pages left to read! And I can’t Wait!!

911 Slideshow

wtc-slideshow

I am a little late in posting this...sorry.
I found this incredibly moving. I hope you do as well.

As always, your comments are appreciated.

Steven.

Tuesday, September 07, 2004


Checkbook Posted by Hello

Do you have a Checking Account?

Then you NEED to read this from the Consumers Union. (These are the people who publish the Consumer Reports Magazine.) This is some serious business that will affect you if the banks new process for handling checks is not modified! Take a look. I STRONGLY urge you to sign the petition and spread the word!

Consumers Union: Petition the Banks!

Tuesday, August 31, 2004

The Lesser of Two Evils…

...I don’t much care for that line of reasoning. I am personally rather disgusted that the choice ALWAYS seems to be the Lesser of Two Evils when it comes to choosing the leader of the free world.

I don’t want to have to choose evil in any form. I want to choose the Right Leader. The Leader who has the ability to make the correct decision more often than not. I am not looking for “perfection”. That doesn’t exist. I am looking for a Leader who has taken on the responsibility not because he covets power, but because he loves his family and wants to do his part to ensure the safety and security of his family along with my family for as long as possible. To me, this means that the far reaching decisions he makes while in office are based on the right thing to do for the Long Run, not just for the immediate gains that may be attained. If the right thing to do happens to anger the people who helped fund the way into office, then too bad for them.

I want to put a Leader in the White House whose honesty and integrity are beyond question. Not because he says they are, but because his entire adult life was spent PROVING it. Show me THAT man, and you will have my support and loyalty. Show me THAT man, and I will do MY part to see to it that other people are aware of him!

Once again, the mainstream presidential choices are not to my liking. One is a man who has had a shot at leading and, by many means of measuring success, has failed. And there is another who has, as many would say, questionable ethics in regard to his desire to attain the office. As far as I can tell, he is just as capable of causing a great many problems for this country and this world as the incumbent is.

So where does that lead us? With a choice that is, in my opinion, no choice at all. EVIL or evil. Either way you spell it, it’s got the same definition.

Blech.

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    Just to let you all know, the above statement is my own, original writing. But I just recently found a link to a site that offers a similar bent on the "Lesser of Two Evils" concept. I have NOT done extensive research on this site and I am not declaring myself in agreement with everything it has to say, but in the case of THIS subject, I have to say that I certainly am mightily impressed with how similar our views are. Please take a few minutes and read the article, and then I would really appreciate it if you posted any thoughts or feedback you have in the comments section.

Saturday, August 28, 2004

Nobody Blogs it Better

Well, that may be going a bit overboard. But not by much. When I first started looking into Blogging, I did some web searches, and read a little bit of a lot of peoples blogs. When I found a blog that I really enjoyed, I would bookmark it and check back every so often to see what's new there. It's kind of strange reading strangers blogs. You get to a point of familiarity with the writers. Not like they are your friends per se, just that there is a history that you know about because you read it when they wrote it. And if they are anything like me, they wrote it when they were emotionally compelled to do so. Sharing a bit of their own souls in the process. The good, the bad, the funny, the horrifying experiences of their lives are shown to you as part of the cathartic and healing power of Blogging.

(You may not think that is true. I am not trying to convince you that it is. But if you are at all interested in learning about it, try it out yourself, and I am convinced that you will agree with me.)

Well, back to the point. There are a small number of other blogs out there that I really like. And to help people find out about them, I have added links to a few of them on my site. So, when you, my loyal readers get the email that brings you back here...please take a little time to read some of them...and then leave me some feedback on this site.

Thanks!!

Monday, August 23, 2004

Longer Hours, Less Pay

I have to admit that I hate working overtime. Really. I like to work my scheduled shift and go home at my scheduled time. Now, with that being said, if I do happen to work more than my alloted hours, I appreciate the extra money that comes along with my personal sacrifice. I think it is fair and just that employers pay that time and a half to thier employees. They are, after all, the people responsible for the success of the business. Whatever that business may be. Now, there are changes to the Overtime Wages rules that may well affect a huge number of people in this country. And from what I have heard, the changes are not good for the employee.

I am certainly not pretending to be an expert on these wage issues, but it seems to me to that this latest turn of events is yet another reason why we all need to work towards being in business for ourselves! As "Employees" we are at the mercy of everyone else making decisions which don't have the best interest of ourselves and our families at heart.

The people in charge have made a change that seems to be a slap in the face of the middle class worker. These are people who, for the most part, are just doing what was asked of them since childhood.

They went to school. Some, went to college, others didn't, but they have all been acclimated to the system which advocates a life of perpetual service to the notion that working for a little stippend is the only choice we have in this life.

Get a job, and work to pay taxes. Buy a house, and work to pay the mortgage and other bills. Have a family, and work to support them so that the cycle perpetuates with the children.

This article goes into greater detail about the changes in the Overtime labor laws. Do yourself a favor and read it. Then, when you are ready to take a stand against these changes, Take Your Stand!

Longer Hours, Less Pay

Are we ever truly alone?

We carry our enemies with us wherever we go, their blades flashing at us and blinding us at every opportunity that we allow them to.

It is only with the greatest of efforts that we are able to still the movement of that blade. And all of that effort is internal. That is what makes it so difficult.

But when we finally do succeed in stopping the blades of our enemies from striking at us, we learn that we have become stronger from the effort. And THAT is the reason that our enemy was their in the first place.

For it is truly spoken: That which does not Kill us, Makes Us Stronger.

Monday, August 16, 2004

Words...and the words that make them.

Ever since I heard my first George Carlin album, I have learned a fascination with the english language. Words are particularly interesting when we use them to make more words. And then we make words out of the words that we used other words to make! (Anyone in the least bit familiar with the computer industry knows what I mean by that!)

Well...Here is a place that lets you find the words that are behind the words.
Acronym Finder: Find out what over 359,000 acronyms & abbreviations stand for

Explore the site a bit and you will find a way to make your own as well!

Enjoy!

Saturday, August 14, 2004

The MOST Original Computer Case Mod I Have Ever Seen!!

Honestly I am not really that big into computer case modifications. I mean, I can see the attraction to it for people with the technical skill to do them. And I like the idea of building a computer to meet your own requirements...the fastest processor, best graphics and sound cards you can afford, and of course all the RAM your system can take! But I am not one of those people who make my own modifications. Cutting holes in a computer case to install neon lights is not something I have a need to do. But, there are times when you see something that just makes you stop and say "Wow! That is too cool!" THIS is one of those things...Even if you are not "into" Anime, you should be able to appreciate the craftsmanship needed to create a mod like this.

It turns out that the man who made this one, makes other custom rigs in all kinds of shapes. Check out his site for more of his work! He is Japanese, but he has some pages in english as well!

Hey...let me know what you think about this stuff! I am interested to know your opinions!

Thursday, August 12, 2004

Email from an Old Friend

This war touches us all.

Whether you agree with the reasons we are there or not. Whether you think you are affected or not there is no way to avoid the truth. If you live in this country, you are being affected by the war.

Like so many other civilians here at home, I don’t spend a lot of time thinking about the war other then when I hear about it on the news. And even then, it’s become something that is so “familiar” that I have a hard time remembering the details of what is being said at the time I am hearing them.

But now, I have received an email from a friend and I find that I am more affected by it than I have been by anything else that I have seen or heard to date on the news or in the papers, or on the Internet.

You may have seen emails in your in box, or postings on web pages that talk about things like this before. I know I have. But there is always a feeling of disconnection when I see them. Like they aren’t written by real people. That they were somehow culled from some anonymous source and spontaneously came to be there. I hear so much about how websites are automated to be updated with the latest news feeds that it seems like there is less and less human interaction with the stories. That makes it easier to be casual when reading about some atrocity or another that is taking place many miles from where I am.

This is NOT one of those stories. I can attest to the legitimacy of the author of the email. He was my Drum Instructor while he lived here in Phoenix. He’s in Chicago now teaching kids about the glory and thrill of Rudimental Drumming. He is a Marine. He signed his email “Former Marine” but I have known enough Marines to know that there is no such thing as “Former” when talking about the Corps. The boy he is writing about is a Marine as well. Here it is…

-----Original Message-----
From: Fagiano U.S.A.

Sent: Monday, August 09, 2004 9:44 PM

Subject: L/Cpl. Jonathan Collins U.S.M.C. 19 yrs. old.

Dear Friends,

I am writing this email about a young Marine I really never new. But I do know His Mother Angelic and His Father John. And more so His little 13 yr. old Sister Devon, who is one of my drum students at a store I teach at in Crystal Lake Illinois. I know His mom marched in the Phantom Regiment Drum & Bugle Corps. in 1976. And His sister loved him very much and was so proud of Him. And always wore a Marine jacket he had given Her. As I watched the news tonight in Chicago, I was devastated to hear He was killed in Iraq Sunday. He had four weeks to his duty was done over there protecting people who really don't care about us or America.

As I got on my web page and went to the picture section of the 2004 drum contest. I looked at the page two at the bottom right corner, with Devon wearing the jacket that her brother gave her. And then it really hit home. I guess I am writing this to try and ease the anger of hearing about another young U.S.Marine (U.S. Soldier) dying for who knows what. If anything, please don't forget about our Soldiers and say a prayer for them daily, and there families and love ones. If He was anything like His Family, He was one hell of a Young Man. And being a U.S. Marine, (US Soldier) He was one of the best.

God Bless You Lance Corporal Collins.

Semper Fidelis (Always faithful)

Sincerely,

A Former Marine

Monday, August 02, 2004

Crime Doesn't Pay in a Washington DC Subway!

But...what was the crime here? I am still trying to figure that out. Seems to me that this was a pretty large waste of Law Enforcement Resources. Not to mention the pure rediculousness of "Outlawing" consumption of a candy bar. I mean, have an ordinance against littering and I will support it! But how can you ARREST someone for eating a candybar? Yeesh!!

CNN.com - Subway rider arrested for eating candy - Jul 29, 2004

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

THE "SHOE BOMBER" SENTENCING

I received an email that was forwarded from a friend of mine today. I have included the text of that email here, but I have also included a link to this information from the CNN.com/Law Center site that has just about the same text as the email. Now, on that point alone I am impressed. So many times when a story gets passed along in email, subtle changes occur in it so as to almost make it a different story altogether. But in this case, the email was pretty true to the real thing. The "real thing" being a portion of the court transcript that CNN posted on line.

Here is the link to CNN.com/LawCenter

So, in the event that you are like me in that you want to see for yourself if something you got in email is real, I present them both, and encourage you to do your own due dilligence on this story.

"Remember the guy who got on a plane with a bomb built into his shoe and tried to light it?

Did you know his trial is over?
Did you know he was sentenced?
Did you see/hear any of the judge's comments on TV/Radio?
Didn't think so.

Everyone should hear what the judge had to say.Ruling by Judge William Young, US District Court.

Prior to sentencing, the Judge asked the defendant if he had anything to say.

His response: After admitting his guilt to the court for the record, Reid also admitted his "allegiance to Osama bin Laden, to Islam, and to thereligion of Allah," defiantly stated "I think I ought not apologize for my actions," and told the court "I am at war with your country."

Judge Young then delivered the statement quoted below, a stinging condemnation of Reid in particular and terrorists in general:

January 30, 2003, United States vs. Reid. Judge Young: Mr. Richard C. Reid, hearken now to the sentence the Court imposes upon you. On counts 1, 5 and 6 the Court sentences you to life in prison in the custody of the United States Attorney General. On counts 2, 3, 4 and 7, the Court sentences you to 20 years in prison on each count, the sentence on each count to run consecutive with the other.

That's 80 years. On count 8 the Court sentences you to the mandatory 30 years consecutive to the 80 years just imposed. The Court imposes upon you each of the eight counts a fine of $250,000 for the aggregate fine of $2 million. The Court accepts the government's recommendation with respect to restitution and orders restitution in the amount of $298.17 to Andre Bousquet and $5,784 to American Airlines. The Court imposes upon you the $800 special assessment.

The Court imposes upon you five years supervised release simply because the law requires it. But the life sentences are real life sentences so I need go no further. This is the sentence that is provided for by our statutes. It is a fair and just sentence. It is a righteous sentence. Let me explain this to you. We are not afraid of you or any of your terrorist coconspirators, Mr. Reid. We are Americans. We have been through the fire before. There is all too much war talk here and I say that to everyone with the utmost respect. Here in this court, where we deal with individuals as individuals and care for individuals as individuals. As human beings, we reach out for justice.

You are not an enemy combatant. You are a terrorist. You are not a soldier in any war. You are a terrorist. To give you that reference, to call you a soldier, gives you far too much stature. Whether it is the officers of government who do it or your attorney who does it, or that happens to be your view, you are a terrorist...And we do not negotiate with terrorists.  We do not treat with terrorists. We do not sign documents with terrorists. We hunt them down one by one and bring them to justice.

So war talk is way out of line in this court. You are a big fellow. But you are not that big. You're no warrior. I know warriors. You are a terrorist. A species of criminal guilty of multiple attempted murders. In a very real sense, State Trooper Santiago had it right when you first were taken off that plane and into custody and you wondered where the press and where the TV crews were and he said you're no big deal.

You're no big deal.

What your counsel, what your able counsel and what the equally able United States attorneys have grappled with and what I have as honestly as I know how tried to grapple with, is why you did something so horrific. What was it that led you here to this courtroom today?

I have listened respectfully to what you have to say. And I ask you to search your heart and ask yourself what sort of unfathomable hate led you to do what you are guilty and admit you are guilty of doing. And I have an answer for you. It may not satisfy you, but as I search this entire record, it comes as close to understanding as I know.

It seems to me you hate the one thing that is most precious. You hate our freedom. Our individual freedom. Our individual freedom to live as we choose, to come and go as we choose, to believe or not believe as we individually choose. Here, in this society, the very winds carry freedom. They carry it everywhere from sea to shining sea. It is because we prize individual freedom so much that you are here in this beautiful courtroom. So that everyone can see, truly see, that justice is administered fairly, individually, and discretely. It is for freedom's sake that your lawyers are striving so vigorously on your behalf and have filed appeals, will go on in their representation of you before other judges.

We are about it because we all know that the way we treat you, Mr. Reid, is the measure of our own liberties. Make no mistake though. It is yet true that we will bare any burden; pay any price, to preserve our freedoms.  Look around this courtroom. Mark it well The world is not going to long remember what you or I say here. Day after tomorrow, it will be forgotten, but this, however, will long endure. Here in this courtroom and courtrooms all across America, the American people will gather to see that justice, individual justice, justice, not war, individual justice is in fact being done. The very President of the United States through his officers will have to come into courtrooms and lay out evidence on which specific matters can be judged and juries of citizens will gather to sit and judge that evidence democratically, to mold and shape and refine our sense of justice.

See that flag, Mr Reid? That's the flag of the United States of America. That flag will fly there long after this is all forgotten. That flag stands for freedom. You know it always will.

Mr. Custody Officer. Stand him down.

So, how much of this Judge's comments did we hear on our TV sets? We need more judges like Judge Young, but that's another subject. Pass this around.  Everyone should and needs to hear what this fine judge had to say. Powerful words that strike home."

 

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I just realized that I never really gave my opinion on this matter. Well, for me it's pretty simple. I agree with the Judges sentences, and his statements. On all counts. I think that this country has been well served in this instance and I am glad for the results thus far. I also agree that in 2 days, no one remembers this case or the judges eloquent points. And the proof of that is this: This trial was concluded 19 months ago, and THIS is the first time I have learned of the results. That is the main reason I am posting this here...so that I will always have a way to remember.


Friday, July 23, 2004

Yet another step in the direction of a Transhumanist World

I am not as well versed in the concepts of Transhumanism as a friend of mine is, but from my limited understanding of the concepts, a beauty pageant for admittedly altered human women is another step in societies acceptance of Human Modifications.
After this, we may well see genetic manipulations as a way to provide our species with the beautiful appearances that we all crave without the costs and dangers associated with going ”Under the Knife”.

Ananova - Miss Plastic Surgery!

Thursday, July 22, 2004

My House is Dark

I just finished watching some TV. After turning it off along with the stereo, the VCR, and the cable box the room is dark. Not the pitch black of midnight, but the darkness that comes to your eyes after the light is taken away from the room. There is an envelope of silence. The room becomes still. Star is lying on the floor next to me. Not sleeping, but resting. She is soft and warm and stays still in the silence which almost makes me think that she appreciates the silence as much as I do. I get up off the couch and walk through the kitchen in the dark.

There is a feeling as the room is bathed in night time. A presence in the room, and yet I know the feeling is only in my mind. It’s the feeling of something missing from the room. From the house. There is supposed to be someone else here with me. Sharing the silence of the kitchen. Sharing the darkness of my house. Our house. It was supposed to be Our House. The place we chose above all the other choices to make our home. The place in which our lives were to have been joined together. The place in which our future was waiting to unfold.

I remember when we first came here. It was scary, but exciting at the same time. It was the first house I have ever been able to call “my own” and I loved being here.

But, as the saying goes, nothing lasts forever, and this is the proof. I am alone in the kitchen in the dark thinking about all of this. Wondering if I could ever put the thoughts down on paper as t’were. Well, here I am. Typing away in my room in the dark. Heh. In the dark again. Isn’t that
where all of this started in the first place?  

Macs: Crash Different

Crash Different
I don't know how long this link will be active, so be sure to watch this as soon as you are able...if you are a Mac User just remember I am just the messenger!

Friday, July 16, 2004

Bananafanafofaser

Ever been shot by a laser beam? No, really. It's a serious question. Because if you ever wanted to know what it feels like, I can tell you. I have been shot hundreds of times by one...and I lived to blog about it! But, just so you don't think I am a total loser, I got my fair amount of shots in as well! And I can tell you that it is much more satisfying to be the shooter than the target!
 
In case you haven't followed the link yet and figured out what I am talking about, let me explain. No. There is too much. Let me "sum up". I am talking about Laser Quest! And there is really nothing like it that I know of! I have played Paintball, (and I LOVE it!) but there are just times when you don't want to end the day with a bunch of bruises all over your body! So, what is a guy to do when that urge to fire a weapon at your co-workers comes over you? Get a gun? Not me... Not since I now have LQ as an outlet for my aggressions!!
 
OK, maybe I am being too melodramatic. But the truth is, this was a whole lot of fun and a great "bonding" experience with the folks I work with. This was the "Team Building" party that Cox Communications paid for. There were about 20 of us from work that went there and played 3 games. Each one is 15 minutes, so I had about 45 minutes of Cardio in the dark tonight!! Heh! I didn't think I would SWEAT that much!! I came out close to the top in each game, ranking 4th, 3rd and 6th out of around 20 each game. Woot!! So I am pretty happy. My score really should have been higher, but the accuracy of those weapons is questionable if you ask me!
 
There were times when, as I was moving thru the upper and lower levels of the Maze I felt like I was in a scene in Star Wars shooting the Storm troopers while running down the corridors of the Death Star! No one ever said I was stable!
 
So, if you have never been there, what are you waiting for! Get some friends together, or even better, some coworkers, and go!! It is such a BLAST! (You KNOW I couldn't resist That One!!)
 


Sunday, July 11, 2004

9 days of Blissful "Not Workingness"

The countdown continues for my mini vacation. Only 3 days to go including today until I get a much needed break from the daily grind of coming to the office to sit in front of a computer and talk on the phone for 10+ hours a day. So, on my vacation I will be able to stay at home and sit in front of a computer and talk on the phone for as many hours a day as I like!

But the difference is, at work, I have specific duties to perform that require much more thought and attention to detail than my home computer activities require. (I mean how much attention to detail does 5 hours of "Battlefield 1942" require!? I can tell you from experience, not a lot...)

And yet, I keep telling myself "All I need is some time off of work and I can get my room cleaned, straighten out the office, work on my business, and cure cancer...if only I didn't have to go back to the office tomorrow!"

Well...here's my chance. After my shift on Tuesday I don't go back until the FOLLOWING friday. Is that cool or what? And it's only costing me 3 days of PTO time to get that done too...there are times when I really like working here!

So, the plans for my off time are these:

Thursday - Doctor's appointment. (Need to get bloodwork done before that day I believe...fun fun fun.)

Saturday: Attend a meeting for my Real Estate Investing Network. (Shameless Plug Warning: This is my page for people who are interested in learning how to do what I am doing.)

After these things, I think I am clear to take a day trip out of town with my mom and head north for a day, maybe to Sedona. I was actually hoping to go up there with a friend of mine, but she isn't available due to her work schedule. And besides, mom's been bugging me to take her on a trip up north for some time now...

So let's see...that leaves the rest of my time off unscheduled. As long as I can keep the Battlefield urge to a minimum, I might just be productive with the rest of my time! I need to hit the gym again and get back to eating more healthful foods than I have been of late. Too many lunches at Wendy's. Gack!

Ever since I read "Fast Food Nation" I have been TRYING to eliminate my patronage of all purveyers of fast/junk food but it's really not that easy!

and speaking of food, I see by the clock on the wall that it's almost lunchtime for me. I may be able to scribble some more electronic nonsense later today. But I doubt it.

Monday, July 05, 2004

Truth is Stranger than Fiction...

There are a lot of places you can find the latest news on the web, but this site is by far one of the best I have found to get some strangem quirky stories that are short and fun to read!
Ananova - www.ananova.com

It's a Sign of the Times

On my quest for unique and strange stories, I have to follow the signs. heh...
Ananova - Warning - prostitutes ahead!

Sunday, July 04, 2004

14 Years Is A Long Time To Mourn

Well, actually I am not really mourning. But I am remembering. And it's not just the events of fourteen years ago, but the events of my life stretching back over 35 years...I say 35 because I don't think I have any legitimate memories from when I was younger than 3. I could be wrong about that, but I think I would need some kind of regression therapy to get to them. And although I think that may prove helpful to some degree in my life, it's hardly necessary at the moment.

I remember being very young and having my first driving lesson. I was told to keep my eyes on the license plate of the car in front of me, and while that may seem like a mistake to you, to me it not only made perfect sense, but it succeeded too! I never wrecked the car. Didn't even come close! I always felt safe and warm, if you can believe it. There was an aroma that surrounded me...it held me, even in times when there was only the smell, or the memory of it...

There are memories of laughter. Voices. Accents. Crazy sentences! All of this worked it's magic on me and made me feel loved, and that I belonged. Much of the time I was the only audience. I felt that all of these things existed just for me. They were mine alone to keep. Not a "secret", but a special gift. In a way I was right. And now, I think I am the only one of us that keeps these memories polished. There are times when I try to share them with my sisters, but they undoubtedly have their own secret memories, and I am sure that mine would not be as important to them, so I keep mine with me and share them when appropriate with my friends. And I smile. Because the love that I felt as a child in my Father's lap, steering the car down the expressway's of Chicago is the same love that I feel when I speak with a funny accent that I first heard him use. Or when I think of how he used to smell...

Morris Goldstein. I Love You!

Saturday, July 03, 2004

Monday, June 28, 2004

Doesn't this look fake?

This is reported by the JPL (Jet Propulsion Labratory) to be an image sent by the Cassini-Huygens spacecraft.
Personally, this image reminds of the only time I ever visited the Grand Canyon. I remember looking out over the south rim from an observation area. The magnificence of the view was only diminished by the thought that the whole thing “looked” fake!

Well, with all the ways we have today of creating an image like this from scratch, it certainly seems possible that this is one of those. But since I got the image from the JPL site, I will give them the benefit of the doubt!

You tell me what you think of this image…!

Saturday, June 26, 2004

Why you should never put your kid's picture on the internet...

Ok...as we ALL know, there are many strange things to be found online when you are just casually surfing the web. I found the number of cool/funny things that I have discovered has increased dramatically since I started reading other people's Blogs. So it should come as no surprise that this link was found in just that fashion.

All I can say about it is this: Someone has WAAAYY too much time on their hands! But, Dang! Ya gotta luv Photoshop!




I hope to be able to post a bit more here today, but if time doesn't allow it, I will catch you all tomorrow.

Friday, June 25, 2004

How did the Early Settlers do it??

I don't know how anyone used to survive in this place before the invention of Air Conditioning! I mean, Yeesh!! My A/C was out of commission for 2 days and it was miserable in here! You can’t sleep that way…talk about a restless night! Of course, there may have been other reasons I couldn’t sleep…like an over active imagination that was “Filling in the Blanks” from the evenings activities…but still. It was freaking HOT last in this house last night!!

 

So, $200.00 later, the condenser fan motor having been replaced by a professional, the house is cool, the dogs are happy, and I will FINALLY be able to get to sleep at a decent hour. Of course, there is still that issue with an over active imagination to deal with…

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

Senseless Violence

It's enough to make me want to stay off the streets of this city. The thought that, at any time, and for no reason, one of my fellow citizens can decide that it's time for me to die has just been brought home once again.

This time it was when a man driving the city streets cut off another driver, and then SHOT him when he saw that the other driver was on his cell phone. The shooter thought that the other man was calling the police (because the shooter cut him off in traffic) and so he pulled out his gun and fired. The bullet went thru the door and hit his elbow, traveling up his arm to lodge in his neck.

The police reports state that if the vehicle had been constructed differently, the bullet would have hit the drivers head, most likely killing him.

So what are we to do about this? IS there anything that CAN be done about this? We are not going to abolish handguns (nor do I really think that we should). It's not like you can say that the victim brought it on himself. He wasn't interfering in something that didn't concern him...he was driving down the street and was cut off in traffic and shot.

Oh...the bit about him being on the phone? He was talking to his sister.

Oh, one other part of this story: The victim is a technician for the company I work for. He was in a company vehicle on company business.

I have been trying to think of a good way to end this entry, but I can't. The best I can come up with is to say that I saw in the news story on tv that the police have arrested a suspect and that the tech is expected to recover...So I suppose there is a small bit of hope in this, though for the life of me I can't really see it...

Oh...here are a few links to stories online about this incident: Arizona Republic
AZFAmily.com
Another AZFamily.com Story

Tuesday, June 22, 2004

I never thought I would say this...

...But I am in LOVE with my keyboard!
OK. I suppose I owe you an explanation for this. As some of you know, I work in an office and sit at a computer for 10 plus hours a day. Several years ago I started using the Microsoft "Natural" style keyboard. I refrain from calling it an "Ergonomic" keyboard because I have seen what a true Ergo board looks like, and this ain't that...but it is so much easier on my hands and wrists than a standard 101 style board that I have come to the point that I can no longer function using that obsolete style. It is too small for me, and the layout of the keys on the "MS Naturals" just works better for me.

Ok...so, I told you all of that to tell you this: When I got to work this morning my keyboard was broken. It wasn't completely broken mind you...it was just 3 keys that weren't working. They are the "Q", "A" and "Z" keys. An odd grouping of defectiveness to be sure. Now, as anyone who deals with a Corporate Office Computer Network knows, a password is required in order to log on. And if you mess up the password too many times...you are OOL. (Out Of Luck!)

Well, in the land of password security, the letters you type in are always replaced by the innocuous asterisk. So, as I tried to log on, over and over...KNOWING that I am typing my password correctly each time, I am at first confused and then upset that the system keeps telling me that the password I am typing is not matching what the system has on file.

So, I check to make sure the CAPS LOCK is not on and go again. But to no avail. Finally I get to the point that the system has locked me out and I can't even TRY to log on with out changing my password. This is ridiculous...but what choice do I have. Fortunately my company implemented an innovation in password security that eliminates the need for me to go crying to my Team Leader every time I get "veered off".

I click the button and start trying to correct my password. The process requires that I enter my current password in order to change it, which I think is silly since my current password has betrayed me and I feel no desire to acknowledge its existence. But I must and so I do. I type it in just the same as I had done 20 times previous, but this time I notice something...unusual. One of the letters is not there. I try it again...slowly...making damned certain that I am not pressing the wrong keys, and once again there is the same missing letter. (It was the letter "A" in case you are wondering.) Well, now I know why I was not able to get on line when I KNEW I was typing the password correctly!

There was only one way to resolve this. I have to steal a keyboard from a coworkers desk. I take the only other "Natural" keyboard in the office and jack it into the port behind my computer. This time the password HAS to work, right? Tap tap tap WHAT!? DAMN!! THIS keyboard is defective too! The "O" button won't work, and I MUST have an "O" to log on!

My frustration was enormous! This leaves me with only one option. I was forced to take a Standard keyboard from a different computer to use until our I.T.S. dept could get me a replacement.

Well...that replacement was hand delivered just now and I have just installed the new keyboard and I have to say again: I am in LOVE with my keyboard!

Whew! I can't believe I TYPED all of that! (And even more: I can't believe you READ all of that!! Hee hee!!)

Interview with an Extraterrestrial

I was trying to decide whether I should post the text here or just provide the link to the aforementioned interview. I have decided to provide the link since this will allow you to peruse the rest of the site and see some interesting things. I especially like the quotes on the main page of the site. Now, I have not had a lot of time to go exploring the rest of the place so I don't really know much about what you will find, but from what I have seen so far, it looks interesting and worth bookmarking! So, here is the link to the Interview with an Extraterrestrial. Enjoy!

Saturday, June 19, 2004

Irish Muzak

Last night I had the opportunity to see a great Irish Band, The Clare Voyants at a local Irish Pub called O’Connor’s.
I have to say, the experience is a little like going to see The Rocky Horror Picture Show for the first time! There was a lot of audience participation involved! Seems like everyone in the place knew all the songs and sang and clapped and pounded the tables at just the right times! I mean, I have seen this kind of thing in the movies, but this was a bit unreal! And it was a whole lot of FUN!
So, for those of you who are looking for something to do on a Friday or Saturday night…if you like good live music, and maybe care to pull down a pint or two…then give O’Connor’s a try! I think you will like it!
(This is in no way intended to be an advertisement for the pub, or the band. But when I find something I like, I share it! Except money. Heh.)

Friday, June 18, 2004

A Comment on the Comments.

In case you missed it, the “Comments” have been activated here. That means that you can utilize this tool to post comments back to me about what you have read here. Or you are welcome to make suggestions about life in general. I only have these few, simple, easy to follow rules.

1. NO FLAMING OTHER COMMENTS/COMMENTATORS. We are all adults here and are capable of making adult decisions in our choices of words…if you see something you disagree with or are offended by, either ignore it, or be mature in your responses.
2. NO SPAMMING. I think that one speaks for itself
3. Respect your host. That would be me. This sort of falls in the same category as number 1, but since this IS my site, I wanted to be very clear on this point.

OK…now that the rules are out of the way, there is nothing to keep you from it! Get writing!

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

Big Plastic Bag

Today I received in the mail an envelope with a big plastic bag in it. Strange. I read the accompanying letter which explained that the bag is to be filled with my junk and left on the curb to be collected by an organization that is helping veterans. Now, to be sure this is not the first time I have ever seen this type of bag, but in the past they have been left on my front door with a note telling me to put my junk in the bag and leave it on the curb to be collected by some other organization to benefit some other group of needy people.


Normally I throw the bag (and the note) away and I don’t give it a second thought. It’s not that I don’t have things that I could fill the bag with, it’s just that I never felt like taking the time to do it. Here’s the silly part: Later on, I would have thoughts about collecting all the junk in my house to donate to good will. So the irony is that an organization goes to all the trouble of printing the bags (they normally have the collection dates on them. A very neat thing to put on a bag if you are an organization that is begging for other peoples donations) and then having someone go up and down the street placing the bags there and telling people that they will come back to get the bags later. Essentially removing many objections that people have in donating things such as not having the time to take the stuff to the donation center…not knowing where to take the things in the first place.

The only thing people would have to do is put the things they don’t want in their houses anymore into the bag and then put the bag on the curb on the appointed day. And yet, I would still throw the bags away. I guess I was too busy avoiding my life to be bothered to take even this small step to help my fellow man. What a callous ass I am.


Well, I don’t know what it was about THIS bag that made a difference, but I went into my closet and did the deed of sorting through pants that don’t fit, shirts I never wear and shoes I don’t want and stuffed 3 bags full. Then I rearranged the clothes in the closet and got some other things out of there that really makes it a lot better to go in there (I have a big walk-in closet…Thanks Judy!) I really feel much better about myself for having done this too. Funny…it really doesn’t take much to make me happy.

Tuesday, June 15, 2004

One Foul Deed Deserves Another!

My friend Oshiah is playing with HTML. EVERYBODY RUN!
Well...he has a new personal website that his ISP provides space for, and since he was kind enough to add a link to my blog on his site, I should return the favor and add a link to his site on my blog.
So take a look around his site and let him know who sent ya!

http://members.cox.net/justjessie/

Testing...testing...is this thing on?

This post is just intended to test my emailing list.

So...they say it's my Birthday!

Well…today is June 15th. My birthday. I am 38 today. It’s looking like another year passed me by without any significant improvements in my life. At least not in my personal life. This past year I began investing in real estate. In the course of about 6 months I have acquired 4 investment homes and they all currently have people in them. That is a good thing…giving me some extra cash flow. But the problem is, I have no idea how to make my money really work for me. I spend it with out thinking. That has always been a problem for me. I really need a partner that can handle the finances better then I am able to. I would love for that partner to be my wife. That is a dream of mine: To find a woman to share my dreams with. In fact, someone to provide me with a reason to even have dreams. As it stands, I have no real reason to achieve anything of substance in my life. As far as I am concerned personally, I can be happy just about where I am right now. But I am also aware that there are some things in life that are worth striving for. Things beyond what I am able to get in my current position in life. So that is the main force behind my desire at this point. To find something worth achieving, Worth striving for.

I have been reading books that are supposed to help me unlock the key within myself. The key that I know I hold that will open any door inside my mind that is a barrier to my success. I know that these books hold real, actual, usable information. The only thing I need in order to tap into it all is the will to try the methods they suggest. The will power to do what I know I need to do. But, (now that is as deadly and poisonous a word if ever there was one. That will kill the creativity and crush the hope out of any fledgling thought!) I have yet to really make an honest attempt at any of them. I don’t really know why either. Oh, sure, I could use the copout and say that I am “afraid”. But until I define what I mean by that, it really isn’t helping me any. It’s just the security blanket of my insecurities. Man…there are times that I really wish I drank. At least that way I would have a more tangible excuse for failing. Something that other people could point at and say “Steve, if only you would stop drinking, you could make all this stuff work…” and I could say “Yeah…I’ll try. Hand me another beer.” And then my friends would get pissed off at me and leave me alone. But they would be thinking that they knew the real reason behind my failure. It would be more concrete to them than my trying to explain that I just don’t think there is any reason to try. Geeze that sounds depressing!

I know that there are times when I am depressed and that depression can affect me in subtly negative ways. Sapping any desire I may be feeling and keeping me laying on the couch to watch another movie that I have seen before. Keeping me from wanting to get up because then I would have to “DO” something and I can not for the life of me figure out what that something should be!

Man, if I continue this line of thinking I am going to get more depressed! So, I think I will call it quits for now…I may write more later. It may not be on this topic (at least I HOPE it won’t be!) but it should give my fingers time to rest from all the work on the keyboards they are doing right now!

Friday, June 11, 2004

What is Love?

I swear this made my eyes get teary. I guess I am just a sentimental man...

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What is Love?

A group of professional people posted this question to a group of 4 to 8 year olds. "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think?

When my grandma got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandpa does it for her now all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love.

When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouths.

Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving Cologne and they go out and smell each other.

Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.

Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.

Love is when my mommy makes coffee! for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.

Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My mommy and daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss.

Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.

If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate.

Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.

Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.

During my piano recital, I was on stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that I wasn't scared anymore.

My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.

Love is when mommy gives daddy the best piece of chicken.

Love is when mommy sees daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.

Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.

When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.

Love is when mommy sees daddy on the toilet and doesn't think it's gross.

You really shouldn't say "I LOVE YOU" unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.

And the winner was a 4 year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly man who had just lost his wife. When the child saw the man cry, the little boy went over into the man's yard and climbed on top of the man's lap and just sat there. When the boy's mother asked him what ! he'd said to the neighbor, the little boy said "Nothing, I just helped him cry."