Random Thoughts

I don't have a specific thing to say at the moment. Just felt like tapping at the keyboard for a purpose other than something work related...
Life is what it is.
I am dealing with financial issues just like so many other folks in the world.
I am dealing with career issues, just like so many others. And at the same time I realize my extreme good fortune to be counted amongst the Employed during this economic hardship.
Somehow I seem to fumble thru it all and come out OK. It's all in the perspective of course. Mine, currently, is that of a man who isn't sure of where he's going, or what to do upon arrival, but is still grateful to still be a traveler.

That's all the profundity I have to offer at the moment.

Thank you for reading.

===Steven===>>

Photo Shoots and Traffic Karma

If you know me in person, you know about my traffic karma. It's pretty bad. I could be the only person in the parking lot up until the moment I decide to leave and then...suddenly EVERYONE with a vehicle in a 50' radius has magically appeared in the drivers seat and is pulling out at the same time.
I could be the only driver on the road, until I decide to make a turn, then...suddenly, there is a car traveling the opposite direction and at just the right speed as to be exactly in the way to prevent me from turning...now I have to wait for them to get out of the way...
It's the way things are for me. I noticed this a long time ago and it's showing no signs of abating.

Recently my Photo Shoot Karma has been sucking just as much. Models with whom I felt a pretty solid connection with artistically have been having to cancel or reschedule at the last minute. Almost literally. I had a shoot scheduled with one girl, and she canceled the day before. Seemed like a legit reason, and I know as well as the next person that Life gets in the way. So we reschedule. On THAT day, her Mother calls me an hour before the shoot to say they had both gotten food poisoning from eating out the night before! So I tell the model to contact me when SHE'S ready...So she does, and we reschedule. And I'm thinking: This time it's gonna happen, cuz...well...I'm optimistic that way. She canceled. And I haven't made any efforts to try again cuz 3 times in a row is more than I can take.
On to the next shoot...same stuff happens, only this time I get the text about her not feeling well enough to shoot as she's on the way TO the shoot...sigh...
Well, long story short (yeah, I know. Too late.) we just wrapped our rescheduled shoot! And THIS almost didn't happen. I won't get into the details, I'm just sayin'...Karma's a Bitch.

This year marks a "First" for me

This is the first year since my father's passing in 1990 that I specifically did not visit his grave. There are a few reasons for this, but the primary reason is the heat. I think I have a pretty solid connection to the memory of my father that the physical attendance at his marker in the heat of the summer is just not necessary. In fact I am beginning to feel it would be just as appropriate to visit on his birthday, which is late October. It not only help eliminate my bitching about the heat, but seems more appropriate to honor his birthday with more reverence than the day he passed.

While I'm at it, I need to confess that I have not honored my Mother's birthday or day of passing with as much vigilance as my fathers. I really need to remedy that. I think I will try to visit them both tomorrow if time and temperature allow. I have to work tonight, and am off at 8am tomorrow morning so it's doable.

HHmm...other than that...I don't have much more to say. I'm going to try to rest a bit before I have to leave for work.

g'night...

Been a long time since I...

...Rock & Rolled!
...Did the Stroll!
...Wrote in my Blog!

Yes it has been a long time. And honestly I'm not completely sure I know why. Although, I can say with certainty that I am beginning to remember why I don't do any serious typing on my laptop anymore! This keyboard is too freaking small! I am so used to the "Naturals" style keyboards I use on my desktop at home and at work, that this flat little thing is really making me nuts with all the typos!!

So, on to my free forming thought parade.
There was a time in the past when I first set up this blog when I was contributing to it much more frequently. Even when I felt I had nothing important to say, I would still bang out some useless drivel just to try and keep my mind sharp.
But lately I haven't had the drive to even make meaningless postings.
I haven't felt like sharing my life on the Internet, not because I was afraid of who might see it, but I was afraid that no one would bother with it.
I have friends and family that I know love me and care for me. And I feel the same to them...but we are all so caught up in our daily lives that stopping to read the inane postings of a man with nothing important to say is...not very high on the priority list. So...I figure...why bother when there's no real audience. I mean, all the really meaningful dialog of and about my life takes place in my own head, so what good comes from tapping on the keyboard? (especially THIS keyboard!)
But in the tapping comes some kind of calming effect. Some generally therapeutic sensation that by doing T H I S I am essentially doing what Dreams are supposed to do. Releasing stuff that's been locked up in my mind. All the drivel of the day that gets tossed in the back of my mind because at the time I think of it I don't have time to think ON it...or because some outside factor pops up to interfere with the process (that's what happens with four dogs in my house...)
So, here I am...tapping my sub-conscience thoughts out on a laptop with a keyboard I am not fond of to the point of being distracted by the sound of January's panting.
What can I say. I just don't have anything BIG to say at the moment. But I still wanted to say SOMEthing...
OK...SOMEthing. There, am I happy now?

I am SO not looking forward to summer this year. I am really not a big fan of the heat...especially when the AC unit on my house is so old it hardly cools the air anymore and I have no way to replace it cuz that takes money that I ain't got.

So...let me ask you this: If you had the funds to do one of these two things, which would you choose:
1. Replace all the horrible carpet in your home with some kind of hardwood flooring
or
2. pay for a significant chunk of the cost to replace the old AC unit on your house.
Either one of these two things should increase the value of your home as well as improve your comfort level...

I dunno...I'm stuck. I have a refund due soon that could put me in a position to have this choice for real, but damned if I know which one to do...which way to go.

Story of my life: Too many choices. heh...


===Steven===>>

Blogging with Buddy

This is my sister Debbie's video blog. She started it in an effort to increase awareness of the Animal Rescue organizations in her city. PLEASE do me (and Debbie) a favor and take a look! And help spread the word about her efforts by passing the link along as well!!

Thank you!! :)